I confess. I’m addicted to the show, “The Biggest Loser.” I was never fat as a child - ever. In fact, when I wasn’t being recruited to be a child model by my aunt, people wondered if I was “too skinny” - since my knobby knees and pencil thin limbs made me look anorexic. In high school I was 5′ 3″ tall and weighed 115 and my parents called me “fat.” Looking back now I’d love to be that “fat” now.

In college I was an athlete. I was bench pressing my weight - 120 to 125 pounds of muscle. I was a healthy, strong weight until I was 25 or 30, yet people continued to tell me I was fat. Twiggy was in, as was heroin chic. I began to resent people telling me how to look, and I began to stress eat. Then I had a hysterectomy - and they took both ovaries, so the weight began to pile on when my hormones went crazy afterwards. I had never had a weight problem in my life, and so I had never dieted. But then my weight began to fluctuate. For the next 6 years I yoyo’d up and down and was miserable.

I lost 40 pounds by running five miles a day and weighed 150. Then I blew my knee out and my Fibromyalgia kicked in for the first time in my life - making even walking or sitting up painful. So the weight crept up to 180, then 200. When I was homeless I weighed in at a whopping 273 pounds. The heat, lack of food and constant moving worked wonders. I lost 50 pounds that summer and have kept it off - settling at 232. But now I want to get back down to the 130 or 140 that is healthy for my height and age.

So here I am. It’s season three and I’m ready to do it this time. Last year I lost 25 pounds, then gained it back when I was snowed in for almost three weeks and didn’t make my daily gym runs. This year I have a treadmill, weights, a plan and a goal. I have 100 pounds - give or take 10 - to reach that goal. I understand that if you make yourself accountable to friends and an adoring public it’s easier to stick to your plan because the pain of the shame of failing publicly is greater than the pain of staying fat!

So, I’m on board once again since “The Biggest Loser’s 10th season” just kicked off Tuesday night. I will be working out and weighing in here every other week. I’m shooting for a 1-2 pound loss a week - nothing so spectacular as the biggest loser. But if what I’m seeing is true, I can lose 50 pounds in 12 weeks. Not bad. That’d be halfway to my goal. So wish me well! Thanks for your support!